Saturday, March 30, 2013

Woke Up FINALLY

Posted by 2DI4 at 1:06 PM

I woke up and immediately began to mix some rolls because I was craving them all day yesterday and I didn't do anything about that. The dough is rising the first time now. I'm also boiling saimin noodles to eat with the rest of my spaghetti sauce. Yesterday I made some macaroni and cheese but I stirred in a can of tuna. It was good. My tuna is lasting FOREVER-I've made tuna sandwiches numerous times and also tuna casserole. I like the macaroni and cheese thing. I finished the last of my spam about 2 weeks ago. Both are good investments. I should always carry both. I'd also like to start carrying canned chicken. All are good sources of protein and last forever. It's good to have to break up with my fresh meat.


I have some chicken breast I've had sitting in the fridge almost a week. I need to cook it before it goes bad today. I think I'll just take fried rice tomorrow since it's so easy to make. I want to make something decadent for myself for Easter. I need to decide and pick up some stuff from the store.

AFTER all our RS visits with people who said they'd come to our Easter potluck, Evan is calling everyone to cancel. I told Sonnet that sucks since we invited a bunch of people already. She said she is going to call everyone who signed up so we can still do something. Sooo, I told her I can host it at my house. What the hell did I just do???!!! Now I'm going to stress out over things. I told her 6pm but I should've made it earlier. This should be interesting. I have no idea how many people signed up. 

Helaman 9 
21 But Nephi said unto them: O ye afools, ye uncircumcised of heart, ye blind, and ye bstiffnecked people, do ye know how long the Lord your God will suffer you that ye shall go on in this your way of sin?

AGAIN, Why couldn't I have been a missionary then??? I would've loved to call people fools, uncircumcised of heart, blind and stiffnecked people. What does that say about me?

Because I Live, Ye Shall Live Also - Elder Shane M. Bowen

As I felt the guilt, anger, and self-pity trying to consume me, I prayed that my heart could change. Through very personal sacred experiences, the Lord gave me a new heart, and even though it was still lonely and painful, my whole outlook changed. I was given to know that I had not been robbed but rather that there was a great blessing awaiting me if I would prove faithful.
My life started to change, and I was able to look forward with hope, rather than look backward with despair. I testify that this life is not the end. The spirit world is real. The teachings of the prophets regarding life after death are true. This life is but a transitory step forward on our journey back to our Heavenly Father.

I wanted to listen/read something Easterish and this is appropriate. I think about my dad every Easter. He loved me so much and I am so grateful for him. I was given the most loving father in the world. I feel sorry for everyone else. Education was so important to him although he didn't finish college himself he insisted on my brother and I finishing graduate school. Before he died he kept telling me I should get my PhD because a Master's degree was becoming so common now. 

When my dad died one of his friends who wanted me to hookup with his son told me you can get married now that your dad's gone. My father used to tell me there was no one in this life good enough for me and to just wait for the next life-BUT me not getting married was MY PROBLEM NOT HIS. I certainly don't believe what he told me. I do want perfection even if I'm far from it. My first David friend was spiritually on point BUT he wasn't politically or intellectually what I wanted at all. The mental block is what annoyed me more than anything. 

He's not stupid, he just wasn't raised here and he still doesn't get some things despite having his PhD for several years. I found his LinkedIn Profile although I have no intention of adding him. Instead of Associate Professor he has Associated Professor. Sooo typical. Sometimes he'll make mistakes like that. When he told me who his favorite classical musician was I thought he was saying Rivalti, it took me a minute to figure out he meant Vivaldi. When he mentioned the Four Seasons I finally figured it out. I didn't like that he would insist that he liked stuff I did like musicals, plays and the ballet BUT I always thought yeah right like you'd see anything if I wasn't around.

My friend now is spiritually and intellectually on point. I do wish I was more patient with him when he decides to NOT act like the person he is. I just expect more from someone that spiritual and that smart. It always throws me off when he deviates from that BUT I think I'm judgmental too and I know I am overboard with him. I just want him to be perfect. I'm sure everyone wishes I were perfect too. I am so far from that so why do I wish he was. Why can't I always remember all the good things about him? Especially when he is great. He is the most spiritual AND the smartest person I've known. Why do I kept ignoring that???!!! I seriously need to work on my princess ways!


 

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