Urban Poly Princess

10 Nevertheless Alma labored much in the spirit, wrestling with God in mighty prayer, that he would pour out his Spirit upon the people who were in the city; that he would also grant that he might baptize them unto repentance.

 11 Nevertheless, they hardened their hearts, saying unto him: Behold, we know that thou art Alma; and we know that thou art high priest over the church which thou hast established in many parts of the land, according to your tradition; and we are not of thy church, and we do not believe in such foolish traditions.

 12 And now we know that because we are not of thy church we know that thou hast no power over us; and thou hast delivered up the judgment-seat unto Nephihah; therefore thou art not the chief judge over us.

 13 Now when the people had said this, and withstood all his words, and reviled him, and spit upon him, and caused that he should be cast out of their city, he departed thence and took his journey towards the city which was called Aaron.

 14 And it came to pass that while he was journeying thither, being weighed down with sorrow, wading through muchtribulation and anguish of soul, because of the wickedness of the people who were in the city of Ammonihah, it came to pass while Alma was thus weighed down with sorrow, behold an angel of the Lord appeared unto him, saying:

Verse 14 is when he is discouraged beyond belief. It is then and only then that an angel appears and tells him to return and he does... speedily. I never do that speedily. I will follow counsel even when I don't believe it will have a good outcome but I drag my feet and do it only because I feel like I don't have any other choice. I SUFFER what I have to do all the time. I don't go speedily, certainly not to a situation I just removed myself from that was horrible. I don't go back quickly even though the Lord directs me there and when I do it is humbly but annoyed and prideful. I am nothing but it is sad that I can relate to the complaining murmuring Laman and Lemuel instead of the ever-valiant, quick-to-respond Alma. 

How do I develop the speedily reaction? How do I follow the spirit as soon as I know what it tells me to do? I want to be like Alma. I want to go speedily where the Lord wants me to be. I want to trust in his great wisdom and not just enough to do it but to do it quickly and well.