Urban Poly Princess

I was looking at his posts on his Facebook page and he is still living life just to survive and going out all the time. He should have a life right now. He is too old to be living that way. He is NOT husband material. As much as I love him and had fun with him the difference was it was B4 my mission and AFTER his. I still love looking good, dressing to kill AND going out BUT I want a future. I especially want a family. I feel like he's still living like a student with no responsibilities or idea or desire to improve his life in any area.

Then what about me and my stupid choices? I should be all about Stephen Haderlie. He's accepted to Georgetown University meaning he'll be moving to DC and studying to be an attorney. I ALWAYS wanted to be married to an attorney. Law school takes 3 years. I am confident Stephen Haderlie will make the money sufficient to support a family well given the time. I've ALWAYS wanted to live in DC. A librarian's average salary in DC is $75,000. He's had the spiritual glow. I can support us until he's making the big bucks AND it would be great to stay in DC. I would looove to live there AND raise my family there.

I can force myself and ask him out Wednesday. Can I handle being with someone I'm not attracted to at all? The thing is I don't want to ask him out. I want to ask Curtis out BUUUT I have nothing in common with him from what I can see and he doesn't even have an associate's degree. I certainly don't want to live in Wellsville at ALL and I think he's going to live there forever.

The very pretty girl I see with Myrick a lot came to church with some guy today that kept putting his arm around her shoulders. I'm not sure how Myrick felt about that. I get the sense he's the one putting the brakes on their relationship. I don't want to ask Stephen Haderlie out. I want to pray about it but I'm afraid I'll get told to do it. I didn't have to pray about annoying or Rich. I was just led there or away from there.

Am I going to regret not doing anything about Stephen Haderlie for the rest of my life. I don't think heavenly father wants any of us to force ourselves to be with anyone.