Urban Poly Princess

I want to make arrangements to do something with Curtis IN PERSON...  BUUUT do I have to wait another freaking week???!!! Should I call tomorrow? When is the best time to call? Where do I call? I found his number in the ward directory. My stupid moodiness messed me up when I should've done this today. I think my best option is to call him tomorrow.

I also keep asking myself why I want to get to know someone better who I already know loves the great outdoors, animals and country music. BECAUSE - he has His image in his countenance AND the light of Christ shines in his eyes. I love his writing and I'm glad he made that last entry because it showed me he is intelligent. I love how close he is to his family and that they spend so much time together.

I like that he just bought a house AND has a steady full time job AND helps his father with his farm.

DESPITE that, I am leaving Cache Valley permanently on July 5, 2015.

So what the hell am I doing? I feel like we need to do this and I already know he is a good person.

Who do I kill IF, although we have next to nothing in common, there is some karma fluke and it works???!!!