Urban Poly Princess

It all comes down to this. I feel horrible. I keep trying to convince myself that I am good and feeling better but I'm not. I am going to have to at least try to make this better between us so my access to the spirit can be unfettered. Now it's clogged with my self-righteous hurt feelings and disdain.

Unless and until I resolve this with David better I will continue to feel like crap. In my head I keep telling the spirit it wasn't my fault BUT it doesn't care. Surely I can feel better without having to involve David...NOOO that's not working either.

I accept now that I get to humiliate myself. Anything will be better than this dull persistent yuckiness I've tried to wish away.