Urban Poly Princess

The secretary AND temple president weren't at their offices. I told the other lady answering the phone that I'd wait for one of them. Sooo I waited about 1/2 an hour before secretary incompetence returned. I asked if I could take a form. She gave me some story about NOTHING-she STILL hadn't sent the form to my bishop!!! I can't believe her. I could've been working by now!!! AFTER I confirm that bishop finishes it, then the stake-I am following up on this thing EVERY STEP of the way now!!!

I did the 4pm session. I was happy to see Alex Merrill from my ward in my session. I saw him again at our ward game night. It was fun AND well-attended. It's the first game night I attended.

I still have bad feelings. I looked up hate in the scriptures BUT they all discuss hate as something OTHER people have. It says to pray for those who hate you-Bless them that curse you and for those who spitefully use you and persecute you. What if I'm the one with the problem? I DO feel used AND persecuted by David.

I felt worthy to be in the temple BUT I know my feelings aren't right. I know my dad loves his sister. I love my dad very much. This is why I need to try. I love my aunt. I also can't stand her. He has 4 sisters. I was still named after her. Malia is my middle name ONLY because my mother won that fight and I was given a Hawaiian name instead of the Tongan one my dad wanted to give me. The compromise was my middle name is her first name.

I still care about David. I still hate him too though. I wrote my aunt's name, my name, my mothers AND David's name down on those prayer roll slips of paper. How do I change my feelings? Why is he such an ass? I guess I'll just keep praying.