Urban Poly Princess

Bro. Salmond said at the end that he teaches us so we will be excited about the temple and want to return there again and again to learn. He's definitely done that for me. I need to tell him I'm going to work in the temple BECAUSE he's made me excited about studying what I do there and learning by considering and pondering all that's done there.

Things that stuck out to me tonight. How being offended is bad. Judas was offended which led to his betrayal of the Savior.

Satan was offended by the glory of the Savior.

These things stuck out to me because I am offended by what David said to me. This isn't a good or even justifiable state. I AM NOT going to miss fhe. I FINALLY started attending again. I'm not going to ask for a new group. David will have to talk to someone about removing me if he wants, but I'm going to quit being offended and act normal. I am going to find a delicate balance somehow. I respect his wishes NOT to be my friend. BUT I am still his and I will treat him nicely. I'm not seeking him out BUT I am NOT going to stop my activity or avoid things just because he's there. If he is offended by me he is welcome to avoid me but I'm not doing that.

I'm also offended by the temple secretary. I can be firm but kind. I'm still going to talk to the president. I'm still doing everything I can to work there as soon as possible. I don't need to call her to repentance even if it would be deeply satisfying on some level. It's like my righteous indignation-It is prideful and NOT what my father in heaven wants me to be.

I don't want to be mean anymore. I used to love it and I'm very good at it. That's a sobering realization.

We discussed the fall and the atonement. Bro. Salmond's insight is priceless. I thanked Sarah again for inviting me there. I will never regret attending this class and as long as I live in Logan and as long as he teaches, I'm going to be there.

I'm reminded of the letters exchanged between Moroni and Pahoran. Moroni was offended by
what he thought was Pahoran's neglect. He censured Pahoran much like David censured me. Instead of being ticked off like me, Pahoran responded kindly to Moroni and tried to explain what really happened. Actually I did try that at first. I feel justified in being a B to him now because I DID TRY!!! BUT that's what I need to get over. People are never going to respond exactly how they should all the time. I don't. I need to let this go.