Urban Poly Princess

I took my fhe flyers to church and met a few new people in my fhe group. David said he and Mindie said I could be in charge of it if I wanted that. I didn't say anything. I don't want to take over their job or anything but maybe this is a way to get them enthused about it because I know they aren't. I'll tell him I'll do it at our bishop's fireside.

It's David's birthday today. I hope he has a good day. My birthday landed on a Sunday too this year. I wanted to be with my mother that day. I wonder if he felt the same way. I need to remember that George still owes me sushi. I wonder how he'll feels about that now. We are NOT discussing politics at all then.

I want David AND Mindie to be excited and enthusiastic about FHE. I guess I'll just keep doing what I can. If we push to get people there AND have something nice planned, people will want to return. Since our attendance SUCKS right now-I decided it's NEVER going to suck that bad again AND to do something about that. I don't like attending fhe with JUST our leaders or just them and Nolan or whoever else.

I need to pray about this too. I don't want to step on David or Mindie's toes BUT I don't want to keep attending FHEs like we've just had either. David gave a good testimony. He said how I feel a lot of the time. He made the comment that he makes a lot of his own challenges. That's how I feel a lot. I still can't believe I racked my brain and spent time praying about how to treat David after he ticked me off. Be Christlike and stay active were my answers. That is so stupid that the spirit had to tell me something so obvious that I shouldn't have to pray about. I should ALWAYS behave Christlike and ALWAYS remain active.

It's when it's difficult to be Christlike that I need to be even more. ALSO-there are countless stories of people getting offended over something stupid who eventually leave the church. That is SOOO NOOOT a fear of mine BUT I'm sure all those people who left had similar thoughts. Our real character is revealed when things are difficult to do and not when they are easy.