Urban Poly Princess

It's been A YEAR since I started treatment for something that should've been done completely in 12 weeks. When he FINALLY listened to me and got me aligners from the company I told him I wasn't done yet so he made me another in-house tray that after a week ruined the work I had just about completed.

I figured it out and used my old aligner but then I couldn't get into see him until yesterday because he was out-of-town. I asked him how many clients he's had that did invisalign and he was honest and told me I'm his only one. He tried to get me in braces when he thought it didn't work BUUUT it did work he just gave me his in-house trays that didn't work.

He told me if he gave me braces or a retainer I would've been done a long time ago. I told him he was probably right but that I didn't go to him for braces. I also said I would've been done a long time ago if I hadn't used his inhouse trays. He tried to convince me to do a retainer this time and I told him NOOO and that I wanted my aligners from the lab. I shouldn't have to pay for his learning curve which is what I feel I'm ending up doing. I am sooo annoyed by this.

If this isn't done right in 9 weeks from the day my I use my last trays I'm getting more FROM THE LAB!!! This whole process shouldln't take longer than 12 weeks now AND I shouldn't have to pay for his learning curve but I will if I have no choice BUUUT I'm not happy about it. He gave me problems where I had none.  I am going to tell him EXACTLY how I feel about this. I am just making it better for his future clients. BUUUT I am wasting over $1000 because he is too stubborn to listen to me. I had to ask him how many clients he's ever had to get this treatment.

Yesterday I left work early for a CVLA meeting at the Logan library. CVLA is awesome. Librarians are awesome people. Finishing this today because I was sleepy so I crashed. New officers are installed which is amazing. I'm so glad Voni ran for and was elected secretary. She will do a fantastic job. Joseph is the new CVLA president and he will do a fantastic job. During my meeting the sisters texted me to see if I could pick them up AND their investigator to a discussion held at our chapel.

Dave was a stand-up comedian in SLC where he worked. He was visiting his sister? I think and her family here in Logan when he was hit by a car on Center street and I think 2nd West. He has had 6 surgeries since then and uses crutches to walk. He is also a recovering alcoholic for a little over 2 years and began reading the Bible then. He is 36 and just began school at USU. He is studying English Literature. This is Dave's first semester at school. Now he plans to teach High School English. I think Lars is an English teacher. That was a great conversation piece for me. I told him how what l loved about being an English major is all the epiphanies experienced through the different works. They help me understand myself and life in general better. The Book of Mormon not only gives you that, it also includes things with eternal consequence. The other sisters had to hand off Dave because he is single and 36 meaning he is in my ward and should be receiving fellowship from it and the missionaries assigned to it.

The Samoan sister and her companion who actually live near Dave on 9th North and 400th East gave a timid discussion. I know missionaries are supposed to cover the material in their discussions and use the spirit to do this. I just thought when I first heard it and then again today that the sisters were all over the place without a simple systematic way to present the messages. They were confusing to me and didn't explain critical parts of the message. They did have the spirit however. BUUUT we had the spirit AND were still effective in teaching people. They talked about the atonement without explaining it fully. They did not use the commitment pattern and she danced around committing him to bapitsm.

While I drove the sisters home Sister Shreve and I talked about how Dave's accident humbled him and prepared him to hear the gospel right now. Joining AA spurred him to read the Bible because part of the 12-step program is to put your faith in a higher power. He is running the AA program Sunday which is why he can't attend sacrament meeting. I told him church is 3 hours and that he can call me when he's done and I'll pick him up. I asked Sis. Shreve how she would commit someone to baptism. Her answer made me feel A LOT better. I told the sisters that's probably why the other sisters had to hand him over. Dave is really intelligent despite just starting school at USU. He would not have gone to school if he hadn't had his accident. He lives with his sister and her family. It is funny how Heavenly Father prepares people to hear the gospel.

The sisters told me last night the Elders go on splits with Justin a lot and he told the sisters he does it because he enjoys it. Perhaps he CAN become a mission president. This is fabulous. Dave will be another baptism for my ward. This is fantastic. Dave is ready. He just needs to learn more. I don't think anyone's explained the spirit and how it works or feels and what we need to do when we feel that spirit. Justin was just as ready for baptism too. I want the other ward missionaries to be ready and get involved in his and ALL the investigators lives. It is what makes the difference in my opinion. I have some starkist salmon. Eggs, cream cheese and salmon sounds great right now although I'm going to eat a granola bar. I am eating Cheetos which I bought yesterday and are fine in moderation BUUUT I don't do that.

 Ether 6
3 And thus the Lord caused stones to shine in darkness, to give light unto men, women, and children, that they might not cross the great waters in darkness.

What are our stones that shine in darkness and give light to men, women and children so we don't have to cross the great waters in darkness. 

Last night my friend from when I was tutoring at a Korean learning center AND working as a Clarins make up counter salesperson at Liberty House played this identify the artist game. She gave me my favorite make up artist Kevyn Aucoin. I had no idea until I looked him up that he died in 2002. I was sooo into make up then. I wanted to get media make up training and work fashion shows in NY. I looove that stuff BUUUT I didn't want my brain to atrophy either and getting a graduate degree was still a priority in my head.

I used to read Vogue and Details EVERY month along with Allure sometimes. That was after my mission. Hawaii has ALL the stores with all the products that hooked me and that I love too. Moving to Utah took me away from that stuff. In some ways that's great BUUUT I still love that stuff. It's a lot easier to love those things when you are around stores and people who also appreciate those things. I'm never going to not care what I look like when I leave the house or what clothes and accessories I decide to wear. I find joy in that. I know it's superficial BUT I feel better about myself anyway when I pay attention to that.

I have enough school for now. I need to make the money so I can get the clothes, drive the car and buy and decorate the home I want. My family is my first priority and I will continue to try to have that by attending AND participating in my church activities BUUUT I need to work this real estate thing. I feel great about my academic skills and degrees now. When I have raised my children maybe I'll return to school and get a master degree in Art History. I still like law but I'm not that motivated to do it. I want a JD just so I can have it, not to work in the field or do anything with it.

Ether 5
Short chapter
4 And in the mouth of three ^awitnesses shall these things be established; and the ^btestimony of three, and this work, in the which shall be shown forth the power of God and also his word, of which the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Ghost bear record—and all this shall stand as a testimony against the world at the last day.

I Will Not Fail Thee nor Forsake Thee - Thomas S. Monson
When the pathway of life takes a cruel turn, there is the temptation to ask the question “Why me?” At times there appears to be no light at the end of the tunnel, no sunrise to end the night’s darkness. We feel encompassed by the disappointment of shattered dreams and the despair of vanished hopes. We join in uttering the biblical plea, “Is there no balm in Gilead?”¹We feel abandoned, heartbroken, alone. We are inclined to view our own personal misfortunes through the distorted prism of pessimism. We become impatient for a solution to our problems, forgetting that frequently the heavenly virtue of patience is required.

I stayed late here last night so Natalie could take measurements for my gorgeous shelves that'll be built in the corner that I have been trying to get done forever. She needs to send me her diagram. I can't wait!!! Materials will cost 450 and she's only charging us 500 so that'll be 10/hour labor for her. I looove what she came up with. I guess I'm meant to be in real estate. I'm so excited about having my shelves and filling them with books.

I have a passion for decor but it was never enough for me to get formal training in. I also don't like working for other people to do that. I like styling myself but I'm not open enough to want to do that for anyone else. I love make-up too BUUUT I am more about doing what I like and want than what someone else wants and likes. I love being a librarian but it is something that exercises my thinking and I love helping people that way and getting paid well to do that. I love English but I don't want to teach. AGAIN, I like it for myself. The only thing I enjoy teaching is the gospel. I will teach BUT I have to be paid enough and I'd never want to do it full time.

My real passion is broadcast journalism BUT AGAIN, I want it on my terms. I guess I want everything on my terms. This is why real estate is perfect for me. While I'd love to work for a network I don't want to be subject to what a news director wants me to produce. With technology the way it is today I can still do the reporting I want on my terms. I want to buy a good digital camera and produce/edit my own real estate blog. I want FinalCut Pro software and solid editing skills to produce quality video. This is the perfect outlet for me because not only will it increase my sales, it will also allow me to cover ANYTHING I want that will just add to the attraction of first Cache Valley and then to the properties I sell. I'm going to develop this here first since I'm here and then take it anywhere I move. Life really is exciting and amazing. We are only limited by our own desire.

The hardest thing in life is figuring out what you want, once you have that everything else is just execution of a master plan. Of course we can't control circumstances and other people BUUUT we have A LOT of influence on these things and we can continue to do our best to become what we want to become. Whatever we do must also fulfill the real master plan or the plan of salvation. As we continue to progress we only increase our own happiness and joy. We are all so blessed with so very much.

Ether 4
 4 Behold, I have written upon these plates the ^avery things which the brother of Jared saw; and there never were ^bgreater thingsmade manifest than those which were made manifest unto the brother of Jared.

So someone else is taking my coupons at the post office and today I ran into her. VERY ANNOYING. I'm going to begin taking a break around 1pm Mondays and Tuesdays just to get them before her. I wonder if she sells them. I only want 8 copies. I can always buy them from the Herald Journal if I really want them, if they have any worth to me. I need to sort those things tonight.

Diabetes has eliminated a lot of coupons for me. There's still stuff like soap and I did find a coupon for my delicious low-carb pasta. I intend to use ALL of them. Unfortunately I think they only sell the brand at Smith's. Smith's sells them for 2.99 for 1 and the coupon I think is for .55 off. I am going to keep buying and using it so it is worth it for me to get. My favorite granola bars have a coupon too. I need to stock up on that too. It has sugar so I'm not eating it just yet BUT after I lose weight AND lower my blood sugar I'm going to eat 1 a day. The health benefits outweigh the negative in my opinion.

Actually my favorite thing about Yoli is the free day. When I did Body 4 Life I loooved the free day concept. It naturally cycles the carbs and encourages weight-loss because your body doesn't think it's starving. Week 1 there is no free meal or day but week I think 2-4 include a free meal on the 7th day. The fifth day and on include a free day a week.

I am sleepy this morning. I got up early but my kitchen was bugging me so I cleaned it instead of doing Zumba before work. I can't wait to start Yoli. Everything I keep reading on my Yoli Facebook forum is great. It provides supplements and nutrition meant to alkalize your body and help you lose weight. A diabetic filmed and posted his amazing experience with Yoli. I like the plan because it is very similar to how I'm eating now anyway. The only difference is the supplementation. MANY people keep writing how amazing they feel.I had spinach broccoli and egg salad sandwich mix for my first meal at 7am. I'm eating spinach, broccoli, cheese and some deli turkey for my 10:30 meal then I'm having the same thing at 1pm. I ordered a burger and garlic fries at Elements yesterday and it tasted great then BUUUT then an hour after that I felt bloated like the Michelan man only it felt like fat instead of tires.

I figured my blood sugar would be high this morning since I munched on a burger and fries yesterday. I ate some nuts at the Henrie's house while everyone else consumed brownies and ice-cream. This morning it was 209 so I'm going to be super strict now until my new Yoli program. Yesterday was my own version of carb-cycling. BS is 148 now. I want to keep bringing it down today by eating broccoli and spinach at every meal.

The Best Time to Plant a Tree - Dieter F. Uctdorf
I know this isn't a conference talk BUUUT my home teachers are slacking because Jeff isn't my home teacher anymore. Amanda's boyfriend Anthony is my new home teacher along with Rich who has a girlfriend. So do these men think when they have girlfriends they should cease performing their calling? They both need to get married so someone who actually knows how to perform his calling can visit me. It reveals your true character if you do this. I had a room mate once who was a slob at home. She always told me when she got married she would be clean. I finally told her one day when she got married she would remain a slob. You don't suddenly change who you are just because you get married. That is ridiculous. Rich knows better. Anthony is just returning to activation in the church. I'm not interested in Jeff and he's not interested in me BUUUT he was still a faithful home teacher and the ONLY reason why Josh visited me. NOOOT that I didn't continue to give him lots of opportunities to do that.

I don't abuse my home teachers. Some women in singles wards ask for blessings when REALLY in my opinion they just want to have that moment with the guy they ask to give them the blessing. If my brother is around he is who is going to give me a blessing. I don't mess with the priesthood that way. Sister missionaries would do that a lot too. It was annoying and unnecessary to me for the most part. I will ALWAYS ask my home teachers first if I need something just to give them the opportunity to do it BUUUT when they act like this I have to force myself to do it AND if I know I can't rely on them I will ALWAYS ask other people too.

My friend that I wanted to rip last time wrote something extremely complimentary on my Facebook page with the new picture I posted. It is very kind HOWEVER I STILL don't want to hang out with her or the other annoying girl in my ward. She gets extremely emotional whenever she shares her testimony. That's fine, when I did have dinner with a girl I visit taught she was there too. She started talking about this non-member guy who had a girlfriend but that she was seeing him too on the sly. He bought a car for her and a laptop. I told her EXACTLY what I thought about that but then there was no reasoning with her AT ALL. She feels heavenly father led her there. MAYBE BUT he doesn't want her seeing a nonmember and he certainly doesn't want her seeing him while he has a girlfriend that doesn't know about her or that she doesn't really spend time with because it is on the down low. Why she or the other girl keep trying to hang out with me and seem to want to be my friend so badly is truly annoying. Either of them make me feel like someone's running their fingernails down a chalkboard.

That was sweet of the sisters to invite me to lunch at Elements today. I hope Sister Hala'api'api enjoyed her day. I called Andrea today and told her I wasn't going to begin until March because I just can't afford the fees until March. She gave me the impression the website isn't something I really need to think about right now. Instead it is time for me to work on identifying my sphere of influence. I really like Andrea and she seems to like training while I need to learn so it should work just fine. Century 21 and Coldwell Banker wanted to train me too but neither of them seemed confident in my ability to sell anything if I choose to work part time. Andrea is the only one who was positive about my ability to do this part time. There is more money I'll be shelling out to her however BUUUT she is also who can train me best and I need to take advantage of that. Robert didn't want to train anyone BUT I still wanted to learn from him because of what Jette said. Instead I'm just going to work with @Home Realty. Her office is very nice and they do plan to move although I'm not sure where.

I looked at the agents for @Home Realty and they look horrible. Andrea looks amazing in person BUT her picture makes her look 10 years older. I'm really annoyed with my orthodontist. His trays reversed ANYTHING the trays did. I spent a lot of time reversing the same work I had done. His big speech about my bottom teeth working against my top row was full of crap because I have an overbite. Thursday he's doing another tray for me to be sent to the lab so the work can be done the right way. I can't believe all the time I wasted.

Wilt Thou be Made Whole - Timothy J. Dyches
“And so I discovered that it is not on our forgiveness any more than on our goodness that the world’s healing hinges, but on His. When He tells us to love our enemies, He gives, along with the command, the love itself.”¹

Tonight most of our FHE groups are going ice-skating but our group and another one are meeting at one of our counselor's homes tonight. I like Bro.Henrie the most. Bishop is condescending but is kind and has the spirit ALTHOUGH I always get the sense he thinks I'm stupid.and he is racist too although I know he had Latin kids he adopted, I always get the feeling he is talking to the nice native girl. Brother Kitchens is nice enough although he treats me also like I don't really have a testimony. I can't identify what it is really. It's just a feeling.Thankfully Bro.Henry is NORMAL and EXACTLY how I want my church leaders to be. I know no one's perfect, I just can't help what I sense and perceive. I've been subjected to so much crap over the years my antennae is particularly sensitive to this kind of stuff and I'm sure I overdo it BUT I know what I feel when I experience it.

Many people in Utah have that annoying affliction I despise but then Bro. Henrie is the only one originally from Utah. Julie and Tema give it off in waves too and they are from the lovely Dairyland Logan and Providence which is EXACTLY what I expect. They are both intelligent however. Especially annoying is Nikki who is NOT but has the same attitude. Jonni is kind and definitely does NOT have that attitude but I feel like she's like Nikki as far as the intelligence factor is concerned. Justin told me yesterday this is his last winter in Utah although he might change that. I was all excited because I told him it was my last winter in Cache Valley BUUUT then later I was disappointed thinking NOOO I have 1 more until I get to leave next year. I can work in the temple wherever I go and I can't wait to work in another one although the Logan temple will always hold a special place with me since I started there despite secretary B. It's a miracle I even work there now with all of the opposition BUUUT weighing whether to be annoyed and offended with her when I don't ever have to look at her again and to receive unimaginable innumerable blessings, the choice was easy.

Justin is truly a great member. I want him to attend a good ward in California. I am excited for him to move there. In August he should make his year mark in the church and should start attending gospel doctrine. I want him to see that there are many normal people in the church and not the prevalence of misfits our ward is comprised of. Justin joined the church for the right reasons. He definitely DID NOT join because of the social perks because yeah there ARE NONE!!!

Ether 2
Was Mahonri Moriancumur just too long to engrave on the plates so the Brother of Jared was written instead? One day we'll know. Something that doesn't matter. One of my favorite saying among missionaries was it doesn't matter if the pearly gates swing or slide, as long as we get there!

One of the ward missionaries I've never seen before although he did say he's been in the ward for 9 months is Jonathan. He's an RM BUUUT his lesson sucked big time. His understanding of doctrine and his ability to explain it are horrible. Lori Loesch and Esther Taylor were also called as ward missionaries. I like them both. Lori is particularly awesome.  I'm not comfortable having him teach our new members ALTHOUGH since Porter, me and what should be ALL of the ward missionaries attend, it should be alright

I decided people shouldn't be privy to all my thoughts if I'm not to theirs. I have a steady readership of my blog which is alright I suppose. This is just so easy to maintain so I decided I'll just ignore it because just the knowledge that people aren't reading my blog isn't enough of an incentive for me to stop it. Plus, I don't really care if they read it or not. I don't have anything to hide and I don't care.

The sisters texted me because it is Sis. Hala'api'api's birthday and they want me to give them a ride to lunch today to Elements and to join them there. This is great because it is free for the sisters to go there so basically I'm buying lunch for myself. If I leave a little early I can buy her a cake. I'll get her a balloon and card and give her $20. I always needed money most on my mission.

 25 And behold, I prepare you against these things; for ye cannot cross this great deep save I prepare you against the waves of the sea, and the winds which have gone forth, and the floods which shall come. Therefore what will ye that I should prepare for you that ye may have light when ye are swallowed up in the depths of the sea?

The scriptures and counsel from our leaders are our light when we are swallowed up in the depths of the sea.

 41 Go to and gather together thy flocks, both male and female, of every kind; and also of the seed of the earth of every kind; and thyfamilies; and also Jared thy brother and his family; and also thyfriends and their families, and the friends of Jared and their families.

What am I missing? It can't be an accident that Noah had to do something similar. What are the metaphorical applications and implications? Each gather male and female of every species and then plants and insects too. I don't get the significance.

Like a Broken Vessel - Jeffrey R. Holland
This was the talk we discussed in Relief Society today. It's weird this is the theme my life has taken in the past week or 2. I know these are real problems and I don't think they're silly problems only people with too much time on their hands face. My current opinion is that everyone experiences these but many don't recognize or identify them as such.

PMS had me on edge so much it was ridiculous. I felt every negative thing in the world and I kept dwelling on it. I felt like I was unraveling and left with crazy. I needed to experience this to have compassion on most people who feel depressed and don't know how to love themselves. I don't know why that isn't a problem for me. I love myself and I am very happy with the person I am despite my many weaknesses.