Thursday, January 16, 2014

Laaate start

Posted by 2DI4 at 10:48 AM

I left home at 8:30 this morning, I should've been at work at 8am instead. This was just not a good morning for me. I need avocados. My diet keeps getting stricter but I'm NOT seeing the results right away like I want to!!! It's usually difficult just to get up. I enjoy Zumba. This morning however I really had to force myself through it. Last night I fried chicken in olive oil and then I fried some spinach. I don't get why this morning I was at 166.

I keep learning more BUUUT it is frustrating to have to adjust what I buy all the damn time. Of course I knew veggies were important BUUUT I thought I could ALSO have fruit BUUUT apparently I need to bring my blood sugar down AGAIN. I FINALLY learned the correct BS numbers. My goal is supposed to be 85-99. I have NEVER been under 100. I need to buy more food now. I need to give up my yogurt now too along with cheese until this stabilizes. This is frustrating. I thought I was doing so well but I find out instead just how far I need to go.

2 Nephi 32
3 aAngels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost; wherefore, they speak the words of Christ. Wherefore, I said unto you, bfeast upon the cwords of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will dtell you all things what ye should do.

 4 Wherefore, now after I have spoken these words, if ye cannot understand them it will be because ye aask not, neither do ye knock; wherefore, ye are not brought into the light, but must perish in the dark.
 5 For behold, again I say unto you that if ye will enter in by the way, and receive the Holy Ghost, it will ashow unto you all things what ye should do.
 7 And now I, Nephi, cannot say more; the Spirit stoppeth mine utterance, and I am left to mourn because of the aunbelief, and the wickedness, and the ignorance, and the bstiffneckedness of men; for they will cnot search dknowledge, nor understand great knowledge, when it is given unto them in eplainness, even as plain as word can be.
9 But behold, I say unto you that ye must apray always, and not faint; that ye must not perform any thing unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall bpray unto the Father in the cname of Christ, that he will dconsecrate thy performance unto thee, that thy performance may be for the ewelfare of thy soul.
Yes, sometimes things are so obvious to me. When I last saw my friend if I spent ANY time with him at all it was obvious to me we should be together. That doesn't mean it was obvious to him although I find that hard to believe. He is making a conscious choice not to have any contact with me. And that's EVERYONE's choice. Last night I went and did initiatories before our ward temple night. 
I haven't been there in almost a month and I wanted to review everything. They did a shift change and one of the women screwed up her lines REALLY badly BUUUT I ignored it BECAUSE if I wasn't a worker I wouldn't have known. Her coworkers need to tell her. She acted like she knew it but she left out a huge section. I should probably go to initiatories more. 
My boss just showed me an article about amazing Salt Lake City real estate projections for 2014 that are restricted ONLY by supply!!! AMAZING and AWESOME!!! I prayed several times about my broker and Robert is definitely the correct decision. HOWEVER this means I need to figure out A LOT myself. I'm definitely taking Adam to lunch to pick his brain. I got the feeling Kyle was trying to seek me out Sunday AND he did come to gospel essentials and ended up asking me who I had chosen to sign with. I appreciate his help and insight. THAT DOES NOOOT MEAN I'M INTERESTED IN HIM!!! 
He attended ward temple night last night and he heard me telling Justin they shouldn't have scheduled his new member lesson last night to conflict with ward temple night. He has a limited use recommend and I told him we can set up baptisms whenever he wants to do that. I'm remembering why I didn't attend activities again. I want to get married, I want to get to know people better BUUUT I hate it when I get all these guys who start to like me and especially when I don't give them any encouragement. It's great if I like them back BUUUT the ones that get hung up on me usually don't know me the way I want them to know me first which annoys me because I don't want someone to just like the way I look. I want someone who can appreciate my intelligence AND my spirit. You have to be intelligent enough to appreciate that first AS WELL as spiritual enough too.
I like people who look good too AND if that's the only reason why you associate with me you can go to hell. ESPECIALLY if you leave too much to be desired physically. I'm glad Robert is married with children. Having Robert as my Broker means I'm going to have to do a lot of my training myself. I think commercial real estate is where I want to be in Salt Lake City. I understand it will be competitive. I'm grateful I can learn here first and ease myself into it. I'm not afraid to work hard and I have a lot of hard work to do.
Like A Broken Vessel - Jeffrey R. Holland
Fatigue is the common enemy of us all—so slow down, rest up, replenish, and refill. 
Patiently enduring some things is part of our mortal education.
Also let us remember that through any illness or difficult challenge, there is still much in life to be hopeful about and grateful for. We are infinitely more than our limitations or our afflictions! 
Whatever your struggle, my brothers and sisters—mental or emotional or physical or otherwise—do not vote against the preciousness of life by ending it! Trust in God. Hold on in His love. Know that one day the dawn will break brightly and all shadows of mortality will flee. Though we may feel we are “like a broken vessel,” as the Psalmist says, 10 we must remember, that vessel is in the hands of the divine potter. Broken minds can be healed just the way broken bones and broken hearts are healed. While God is at work making those repairs, the rest of us can help by being merciful, nonjudgmental, and kind.
Until that hour when Christ’s consummate gift is evident to us all, may we live by faith, hold fast to hope, and show “compassion one of another,” 13 I pray, in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
I wanted to listen to this talk because it is what I thought of when our Business Dean told me about our sweet Tongan student who attempted suicide this past Christmas. I can't imagine ANYTHING being that bad. I just weighed myself AND it isn't down yet I STILL LOST JUST THE SAME 4 LBS. I know I won't lose weight until I get my blood sugar down BUUUT damnit this is taking so damn long. It makes me feel like exercising is a waste of time BUUUT it supposedly helps bring down your blood sugar too. I finished eating at 9:30 so I can't even check it yet. I need to keep buying those big bags of spinach and eat it with everything throughout the day.

 

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