Urban Poly Princess

My patience is nil and I'm on the verge of tears all the time. When hormones were added to that I felt psychotic. I think I finally get what is wrong with me. I have been on edge since my diabetes diagnosis. I think I need to work out often just for the endorphins. I wonder if this is more karma for me because I never have patience with people with "mental" problems. This is just part of strengthening my many weaknesses. I haaate this but it is real and overwhelming. If someone told me to perk up I think I might want to slap them. I'm crying FINALLY because I'm at home so I don't have to worry about my students or encountering a co-worker.

I told Robert I wanted him to be my broker but he wasn't very positive about that. I may just have to work with Andrea which isn't a bad thing at all BUT I want Cornerstone AND when I prayed about it that is the answer I received. I like Andrea too but I'm only going there if I have no choice. He said he had to discuss it with his brother which to me is just a delaying tactic to tell me no.

I need to go to Walmart to get produce as in avocados, spinach and broccoli. Constantly having to run to the store all the time to get food I can eat sucks. I bought the last 7 organic candy bars the have at Smith's. I left some hard-boiled eggs and my berry cream cheese at work so I'll go get it after I hit up Walmart.

I feel way better right now. I probably just needed to sit here and cry. I don't feel stressed or overwhelmed now. I felt like a pressure pot waiting to burst. I am a broken vessel. I'm just going to have to learn to manage this disease better. I'm thinking it's time for me to do the Yoli thing. I'm going to rev up the exercise component then I'm sending a check for my yoli. I hope it brings my BS down because what I'm doing now isn't enough.