Monday, January 6, 2014

Beautiful New Day

Posted by 2DI4 at 10:48 AM

198-I know this is thanks to having nothing to eat in my house. Last night I was too hungry to wait to prepare anything so I ended up eating 6 chocolate covered granola bars and 2 low-carb tortillas filled with sour cream, cheese and 6 chicken nuggets. I baked 9 however so I just ended up eating the rest. I had a low-carb yogurt and now I'm eating celery and humus. I am missing my Greek yogurt right now. I'm just going to buy my it again. It may have more carbohydrates but I just feel like it's better for me. I need to constantly have Cheetos and chocolate in the house. My granola bars are fine and really didn't spike anything too badly BUUUT I need to have snack foods in the house that I can eat also like my nuts and pork rinds. I'm out of EVERYTHING to just snack on now. Time to change that. I'm going to start on my last orange now.

Another thing Death to Diabetes wants me to do is buy filtered water. Another thing NOT HAPPENING!!!

My goal for January is to bring my blood sugar down, incorporate as much of Death to Diabetes as possible and that I agree with, lose 20 lbs, Select my Broker too and BEGIN RE training. I need to close 12 transactions this year. Something that is NOT happening if I don't act asap.

I am happy I can finally go to FHE tonight. Another thing NOT happening is I'm not getting married UNLESS I meet more people AND socialize with them. ALSO I have to magnify my calling and the best way to do missionary work is through the members who associate with many nonmembers. Yesterday Beckie gave us a lesson on hastening the work. It made me think about how I was NOT magnifying my calling BUT it also made me consider how we as ward missionaries need to provide our ward members with specific things they can do to get to know other people and invite them to attend the ward and/or activities. The lesson was too much theory and not enough practical ways to invite nonmember friends and associates to activities along with extending the invitation to them to hear the discussions.

2 Nephi 21
2 Behold, God is my salvation; I will atrust, and not be afraid; for the Lord bJehovah is my cstrength and my dsong; he also has become my salvation.

Hastening the Lord's Game Plan - S. Gifford Nielson

I know we each must develop and carry out our own personal game plan to serve with enthusiasm alongside the full-time missionaries—EXCLAMATION POINT!
I add my testimony to that of the Prophet Joseph Smith: “And now, after the many testimonies which have been given of him, this is the testimony, last of all, which we give of him: That he lives!” (D&C 76:22). In the sacred name of Jesus Christ, amen.
Krista was trying to make arrangements for us to go and do baptisms in Salt Lake City Saturday since our temple's closed for cleaning. This would be fine but she was trying to get me and Justin to spend time together exclusively. I like Justin. He is gorgeous, kind and sweet BUUUT as a new member I think it is really important for him to develop friendships outside of just me. I think because Krista has a boyfriend now she wants me to hurry up and get one so we can go on double dates and do fun stuff together. That's fun BUT Yea that takes awhile for me. My friend is different because I know him well already. Actually ALL I'm interested with him is dating him exclusively now. I'm not going to just be his friend. 
Justin or anyone else right now however is different. I have to get to know them first before I can even consider if I want more. That is why I shot down her idea. He has his recommend to do baptisms BUUUT I think it would be good if we as in SEVERAL ward members got together to make this happen. 
Heavenly father actually did give me approval awhile ago to date Justin if I wanted that BUUUT I want his testimony to develop well the way it should and I'm not going to complicate that now with him. Rich reminded me of how amazing it is to interact with someone intelligent and with enough in common that I just enjoy talking to them without having to work at it so much. I attended several of Justin's discussions which I loved BUUUT AGAIN he needs people who are his friend WITHOUT me involved at all. I don't want to be with someone just because I love the way they look. It is important to me, actually VERY important to me BUUUT it is just a small part. Everything else is imperative. 
Ryan, both Roberts and Mark are good men. Ryan and Robert Hansen are extremely intelligent too BUT I wasn't attracted to either of them ALTHOUGH I know either of them are apostle material. Men who know their scriptures are impressive. The knowledge isn't what is so great. What is great is that it was and is important enough for them to spend the time to be scriptorians. The other Robert and Mark are the same to me. Very faithful and how I want my husband to be as far as how supportive they are in the church. I like that Ryan was that way too. I know heavenly father blessed him with Rachel. She is awesome, spiritual, an RM and is even tall like Ryan. Finding someone as great as him is difficult. I am so happy for him. 
Robert and Mark have the testimonies and dedication to the gospel I like. Neither however is very ambitious which is a problem for me because I am extremely ambitious and I intend to have a financially abundant life. I really think your ability to serve is limited if you don't have this. Physically Mark is gorgeous. He just looks too much like my nephew. He is kind and a gentleman however and I'm glad he's my friend. He is humble too. I was just really taken aback when he refused to ask his friends if they would listen to the discussions. He served in London. He traveled to Europe but he seems content with not working anywhere really set up to support a family and living here for the rest of his life. It's how I feel about Robert too only Robert doesn't have the gorgeous factor working for him at all. Will I be punished for NOT pursing something more with Mark? The thought of living in Logan for the rest of my life is deplorable. Supporting my husband financially??? OH HELL NO!!! BUT that's what would happen with Mark or Robert Draper. Actually that's the one chink in Ryan's armor. I don't like his job I think he has now although I really think he is too intelligent to be working for Conservice. He should be in a job paying him the type of money he is certainly capable of making.
My friend will make money when he's done with school. His crappy salary now is just temporary. While he doesn't know his scriptures as well as Robert and Ryan, and he wasn't as supportive as Ryan or Mark, by working in the temple he shows his love for his Heavenly Father and his desire to serve him. I am so grateful for the opportunity I have to work there. I looove it!!! I hope I see him again. I have clues about him but nothing definitive. I hope he's happy and I want to see him BUT only if he wants to see me. He taught a class this past Fall. I wonder what he thought of that. George loves teaching. 
 My brother reminds me a lot of my friend except for the social component. George is highly skilled AND is also an incredible people-person. They can both sing but my brother loves performing. My brother is naturally an incredible father and husband. While their technical skills are similar George isn't an engineer. My friend is the type who can probably be locked up in an office alone with his tech stuff and love it. George is an effective manager and leader and I am sure he wouldn't be happy unless he did interact with people regularly. George was a veil worker too. 



  


 

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