Urban Poly Princess

Of course I fell asleep on the couch and now I'm feeling emotionally crappy AND awake. It is in these stupid hours that I stress out over nothing. Why the hell did I have that dream last night? I haven't had my period this last month and when I got a zit and felt horrible I thought it was that but then nothing happened. I did a Google search to see if Metformin was to blame BUT it isn't. Women ALSO take Metformin when they don't have a regular period. I never haven't had one BUUUT I am getting even older now so it could be menopause and then I won't be able to have kids naturally anyway so why the hell did I have that dream to encourage me to exercise to prepare for labor? It's the only reason I can think of why I'd remember that stupid dream.

I miss my friend so much BUUUT I wouldn't if I'd encounter ANY men I could find interesting. I love him AND I'm in love with him AND that is sooo messed up. I thought I was alright with that BUUUT I'm NOOOT if I can't do anything about it and I've done everything I'm willing to do and actually even more than I'm willing to do.

I know everything's magnified now because I'm stressing out early in the morning over nothing. I know once I've calmed down I'll have the proper perspective BUUUT that doesn't help me right now. I don't like stressing out over everything although the way I react does not support that. Time to lie in bed tossing and turning until I finally go to sleep again and the alarm rudely gets me up to go to work.