Urban Poly Princess

There are so many things I enjoy and so much for me to be grateful for. I have to stop tripping. I don't like feeling like this and I'm just going to be happy because it is my choice and that is what I choose. Men are that they might have joy. This is what I want and this is what I will have.

You can never please everybody all the time and I think this coupled with my irritation with my friend imploded yesterday. I've seen him before even as he avoids me and I've tried to just let him have that by not mentioning it here at all since I'm pretty sure he reads this. But I'm done. I saw his vet friend at church Sunday and it reminded me of when I parked by him for FHE once and I had to look at her there. She could really be in my ward now.

He never came in which is good because I don't want to see him with anyone BUUUT seeing her Sunday I thought how it would be easier for him and her and all his other fans if I just wasn't there. That made me sad and mad. I thought about how I was being selfish. We're not dating which means I don't want to have anything to do with him. These are the only Midsingles wards in the area and I need to accept that he might want to attend something there with whoever. I want to be happy for him. I want to be alright with all of this but I'm sooo not. I just want to run away to Salt Lake and never return. My Father in Heaven has a wicked sense of humor. If I leave I incur an instant 31,000 debt. No thank you.

I love my life and I can get through everything because I have the gospel of Jesus Christ. I know better. I don't know why I let petty things get to me. My coworker had the gall to email me a list of who he thought should be invited to the party. He said not to include adjunct teachers but then he listed a couple to include. He also listed a TA but not the other 2. There is no way I can invite some and not include the 8 people this would've eliminated.GRRR!!! His email was ludicrous. REALLY YOU ARE GOING TO ASK ME TO BE EXCLUSIVE???!!!