Urban Poly Princess

I am starting to die.. It is so hooot in here. The computer science Dean is in his office and I am here in the library on the 2nd floor with NO ONE ELSE!!! Today is the last day of the module and I don't see anyone here right now although I know people will come in later today.

I was so angry last night when I looked at our ward directory and read what I did. I have been Justin's fellowshipper from the beginning and there's nothing wrong with that. I just wish some guys would be his friend instead of it always falling to me. As a ward missionary I'm with him in class every Sunday in gospel essentials. Instead of going to gospel doctrine and FINALLY having class with OTHER people, he is going to remain in gospel essentials and even teach it now.

I'm thinking about how mad I was about our ward missionaries. With the exception of Beth I have no faith in them. BUUUT missionaries are never the most knowledgeable in the first place. The humility that comes with some 18 or 19 year-old now is something the Lord has always used to spread his gospel most effectively. I am the one who is lucky to be serving with them. There's some scripture about the Lord using the weak things of the earth to spread his message of peace and salvation.

Heavenly Father has never cared about someone's intellectual abilities. What is important is their humility, love and willingness to serve. I am grateful for my father in heaven's patience with me. It is my privilege to serve with people who are willing and want to do their best. Justin goes out on splits with the Elders now. His testimony is sweet and sincere. He is doing everything he can to progress.

Again and again I need to be humbled. What is wrong with me???!!!

2 Nephi 11
5 And also my soul delighteth in the ^acovenants of the Lord which he hath made to our fathers; yea, my soul delighteth in his ^bgrace, and in his justice, and power, and mercy in the great and eternal plan of ^cdeliverance from death.

Daughters in the Covenant - Henry B. Eyring
That path is marked by sacred covenants with God. I will talk with you about the joy of making and keeping those covenants and helping others keep them.
Only a few of His daughters have the opportunity in this life to even learn of those covenants. You are one of the favored few. You dear sisters, each of you is a daughter in the covenant.
Heavenly Father smiles on you as well whenever He sees you help a daughter of His move along the covenant path toward eternal life. And He is pleased every time you try to choose the right. He sees not only what you are but also what you may become.

I am grateful to be a ward missionary and I am very grateful to be reminded of what truly makes a missionary great AND it's not because of intelligence or speaking or even teaching ability, It is humility, love and the ability to be used as an instrument by the Lord to help other people feel and recognize the spirit. It is only through this, through loving people and simply being kind to them that makes the difference. 

I need to quit being suspicious of people and their ulterior motives don't really matter if they are doing good and moving this work forward.