Urban Poly Princess

2 Nephi 25
4 Wherefore, hearken, O my people, which are of the house of Israel, and give ear unto my words; for because the words of Isaiah are not plain unto you, nevertheless they are plain unto all those that are filled with the ^aspirit of ^bprophecy. But I give unto you a ^cprophecy, according to the spirit which is in me; wherefore I shall prophesy according to the ^dplainness which hath been with me from the time that I came out from Jerusalem with my father; for behold, my soul delighteth in ^eplainness unto my people, that they may learn.
26 And we ^atalk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we ^bprophesy of Christ, and we write according to our prophecies, that our ^cchildren may know to what source they may look for a ^dremission of their sins.

Yesterday I was thinking it would be better if after Krista gets married I leave our ward. That would probably make lots of people happy. I don't like being why anyone stays away but the thought of having to attend another ward is not something I want either. The wives will all treat me like I want their husbands if I even have a conversation with them. While my ward annoys me I am glad not to deal with that. I feel horrible but I know this is where I should be and this is where the best chance of meeting someone I can marry is going to be and that is my priority. Just because I'm not going to consider any guy with a pulse in my ward doesn't mean I don't want to find someone to spend eternity with right now.

I haven't done anything wrong and it isn't my fault someone isn't comfortable around me. That is their problem and I know that. It still doesn't make me feel good. That's just something I have to deal with. I don't know why but I don't care why. I get how easy it is to become inactive. I am well aware of that. STILL I have never felt more inclined to stay away. It is already hard for me to attend. I've known this for awhile now so I don't know why it's bothering me as much as it is. 

One of my coworkers got the hell on my nerves today. He has been extra annoying. He emailed me a list of who should be invited to Sharla's dinner get-together. I ignored it. I truly want to slap him silly. Today he told me he doesn't support doing a memory book or cake and that it is too burdensome. He even talked about how there would be consequences if I ignored his request. 

At first I wrote an angry passive aggressive BUT STILL scathing email. I can write anything and get my point across while still being professional on the surface so that was actually fun writing HOWEVER I calmed down and thanked him for telling me how he felt and told him not to do anything he wasn't comfortable with. I asked if he would let me include him in the book if he chose the picture but he hasn't responded so I'm going to make sure he's not in it at all. 

Drama at work, drama at church, damn drama in my life.