Urban Poly Princess

I thought I was the normal 5 minutes late because I left at 5:30 and had a little less than 10 minutes to get ready. I like to leave at 5:15. When I sat down at prayer meeting and reviewed the schedule I was supposed to be there an hour earlier. They told me I'd have to be early twice a year. NOOO that's obviously not true so now I need to get my substitute for even an hour earlier next week.

I REALLY hope I'm imagining things but I'm pretty sure I'm not. I think I saw avoidance this morning. I don't park there all the time. I like parallel parking in the front but sometimes like today they are all taken. He likes early hours BUT he knows I work at the temple on Saturdays and he should have an idea of how late the shifts go although veil workers do their own thing. If he has a problem like he obviously does he should just go there in the late afternoon or in the evening on Saturday OR any other day. It is very annoying to have to see that and then get in the right frame of mind to be at the temple.

I WON'T BE THERE NEXT WEEK SO IT IS FREE AND CLEAR FOR HIM TO ATTEND WITHOUT ANY CHANCE WHATSOEVER OF RUNNING INTO ME.

I saw Jonni, Nikki, Monica and Heather there. He has no qualms about spending time with a group of women by himself. He thinks that is appropriate. Maybe he cancelled attending with them because he didn't want to run into me OR maybe he did anyway. We change where we are every hour so he could run into me just as easily as he could not. I've seen him in the temple twice now anyway. I AM HELPING WITH THIS AVOIDANCE THING NOW SO EVEN IF HE APPEARS RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY FACE I'M NOT ACKNOWLEDGING HIS EXISTENCE.

I'm not pretending not to see him anymore when I do. When he acts like this it just makes me feel horrible. If that's what he wants he has succeeded. I've noticed enough times to irk me but I can only imagine the many time he's done this when I haven't noticed a thing. I feel stupid and annoyed and while he is leaving me alone why do I have to see any of that at all. He had his time to attend the temple and work in the temple Saturday mornings. He can go to Brigham city if he really wants to go to the temple in the morning. That drive is a nice opportunity for him to talk to girls he wants to spend time with. IT WOULD BE NICE IF HE'D JUST NOT BE THERE. I get the church activities and church. I'm sure he wants to socialize with other Mid-singles. If he wants to attend something he should. When he waits to see if I'm there then leaves it makes me want to scream at him but he hasn't done anything either so what the hell do I complain about???!!!

It was pouring when I left the temple. I need to buy something for Krista then check out Stevens-Henager College's Open House before I drive to Millville for Krista's shower. I haven't even glanced at the gospel principles lesson I need to teach yet.