Urban Poly Princess

ANNOYING, that's the first time I had one completely disappear. Usually it just becomes a draft,

FHE was cute. Heidi worked really hard to provide us with this Easter devotional thing.

Yesterday at choir Robert came and sat with me and chatted. He is awesome spiritually. I love his commitment to the gospel AND his church activity, unfortunately that's ALL I love. He deserves someone who thinks he's attractive and Holly definitely thinks that. I told him when he sat by me again tonight at FHE. I told him he needs to do something about what she told me. I told him I told her positive things because he is faithful. He said he'll ask her out Friday. A pretty girl thinks Robert is attractive, he needs to move on that. She is really sweet too. I can completely see them together. Robert reminds me of Mark in that he has an awesome testimony and he deserves someone who adores him. I wish that could be me. I just am not attracted to Robert and it's not just physical. IN EVERYTHING, he isn't going to be able to communicate with me about many things. Mark is fine and tall BUT not only does he look A LOT like my nephew, he is also not going to attend college let alone graduate school and he probably wants to support his family working as a custodian. Robert works at the cheese factory.

I told my mother I had that problem. She about died when I told her there are faithful men in my ward but they might work as a custodian or at the cheese factory and seem to want to remain in Cache Valley for the rest of their lives. She told me it was fine that I felt that way. Porter stays clear of me as I do him. He does absolutely nothing for me. I overheard him telling Heidi he doesn't have a date for Friday. I am sooo glad I told Heidi to take me off that list. I just don't talk to Porter at all. I won't do that to Robert. He is my friend BUUUT I'm NOOOT going out with him EVER. I guess the Poly dating thing is ingrained in me a lot deeper than I thought.